Lara lay on her bed thinking of what to do. She had tried every thing possible to stop A.B from coming to her house to pick her up. She did not want the embarrassment of a cabu cabu coming to take her out. She was seriously distressed and had spent hours thinking but she wasn't able to come to a reasonable conclusion; a conclusion that wouldn't be so obvious. She had called AB earlier and tried to dissuade him from coming to get her. She had tried to convince him into committing to a meet up but he refused. She tossed and turned...time was passing and she dreaded every passing minute, not because AB was anticipated to be a bad date but because she was afraid of the embarrassment that could result from AB and his cabu cabu. What if some one saw her with him ? how will she introduce him? and his taxi....she considered calling the evening off then put the thought away. No she would see this through and that will be it...hopefully this will be a very short date...
Lara watched AB as he went to the counter to get their ice cream. It had been a fun evening so far, much more than she was allowing her self to admit. She watched him as he got to the counter he turned to her and they shared a smile he turned back to the sales girl behind the counter while she sat there staring at him. They had spent the evening getting to know each other, some how Lara found her self enjoying Ab's company the more time she spent with him the more she liked this young man. He had a good sense of dressing its a wonder she was ever afraid he would embarrass her. Who would have thought that he would have owned a second car. She was breathless when she saw his Toyota Venza 2010. He had taken her to see a movie, then to a beautiful restaurant she did not know existed and now they were here at an ice cream palour to satisfy her sweet tooth. She watched him in his beige colored chinos trousers and blue checkered shirt and moccasin. He was a full 6 feet tall very dark skin and....cute. He smiled at her and she looked away..."so?" he asked as he sat down "so what" she replied " I noticed you assessing me...did I pass? whats my grade?" he asked with a smile, she smiled back" Well the assessment is still on ask me when the result is out" they both laughed..." but really Lara" he said " I like you..." Oh oh she thought here we go..." am not saying that I am in love you ...I would like to date yo but I am ignorant that there are a lot of things we would have to deal with for that to happen. I hope that you are able to look past the walls that divide us and at least allow us be friends..." he finished. Lara stared blankly at him she wasn't expecting all he had just said all she could say was "like what? what are the things you think I have to deal with?" she asked " you" he said " me?" she asked " yes...Lara you, you have to come to terms with the Fact that am a cabby it is what I do. I am not as educated as you are regardless of what you might say...that has got to have some effect on you especially regarding what your friends think" Lara fought to be quite...she wanted to jump in defense...to tell him it wasn't so...but she knew it was true. She looked away...thinking of what to say to make this a little less awkward. She couldn't bear to look at the sadness in his eyes she wanted to tell him she cared about him in a way she couldn't explain but she could not. She felt guilty and ashamed and pained. She wished he had an education ...it was true he was a better man and more polished than most educated men yet she couldn't get past those two factors... she looked down and swallowed hard. He placed his hand on hers and she wanted to pull away but he tightened his grip "I understand...Lara...but at least allow us be friends...would you?" She couldn't speak she nodded. " I think we should leave now" he said and they did.
The drive home was fun AB made sure of it he wanted her to relax...and she did. He liked the way she laughed at his jokes she was equally funny in her own way. AB pulled over in front of her house " you need me to walk you to your door" he asked with that sly smile of his..."no need"she said. silence Lara looked away she felt strangely attracted to this man she wondered what next should she just jump down or wait...for what? will he kiss her?
Should he kiss her? he wasn't sure what next... he turned to her and smiled at her she looked away. " well then see you...." "soon" she finished for him " Okay" he said. She turned to get down he held her hand and she stopped looked at him "not even a hug?" he asked , he knew he was being bold but..."No" she said bluntly " ouch !" she laughed and got down waved at him and walked away. He watched as she walked away...AB smiled after her shook his head and drove away...
It had been a month since their date and Lara and Ab had become good friends. Its amazing how much can happen in just one month. She stared at her laptop...she just got notified that she was selected for a scholarship to the UK to run a straight masters and PhD course. That would last Five years. Lara was happy about this news,she had applied for this last year but hadn't been selected. Her mind wandered to AB how would he take the news? may be this was a way out for her ...in as much as she knew she was strongly attracted to him this offered an escape and a very good excuse not to end up with him. telling him might give them time to plan...no she would tell him later. She had a month to before she left...she would tell him two weeks later...Lara knew this was wrong and that she was bound to regret this but she couldn't reconcile the differences between them.
AB stared blankly at the screen of his phone. He had just gotten news that Lara was leaving the country. He was stunned...beyond that he was frustrated , shocked, Pained. He hadn't even known she had any of such plans. She said it happened suddenly and she applied before they met. But why hadn't she mentioned it at all...why did she withhold information from him? AB felt deceived and lied to. He dialed her number more out of reflex than a conscious action. " Hello AB" she said and he froze..."AB.." "Hello lara...are you serious about the message or you are just pulling my legs?" " how long can they stretch ?" She asked " am not joking Lara" he said. silence " AB ...I am sorry this is coming to you so suddenly but...""But you did not think I deserved to know right...I am not educated enough to know? "AB!" she yelled " What is wrong with you? why would you say such a thing?" she asked " why wouldn't I?...you may say otherwise but your actions tell it all...you are more obvious than you think Lara, and I get it.." "No AB you don't get it" she cut in " you only get what you want to get..." " you know what ?" he said not waiting for her to finish "Just forget it...okay... Safe trip when you travel". "AB..." she was starting to say something but he hung up.
Lara Stared at her phone she was enraged her rage boiled over...did he just hang up on her? hmm if only he knew what he had just done she fumed...well he asked her to forget it and she was going to do just that...stormed past zubby into her room and slammed the door.
AB paced the past two weeks had been torture. He missed Lara so much, why in the world did he react the way he did? now he burnt the only bridge he had that formed their delicate relationship. His friend and pastor had asked him to apologize, He could still hear his friend's gentle voice telling him that he could have worked things out with her by talking things over. He knew he had no right hanging up on her. He wasn't even sure if she was still in town. He had tried sending her a message so many times before but every time he picked his phone up he would go blank. He quickly typed the message and pressed send. he prayed she got the short message, he had so much to say but this was all he could do ...
Lara picked up her beeping phone...AB she thought...what now? she was still mad at him even though she missed him terribly she wished he would man up call and apologize, not that she hadn't considered it... calling him up but that was not her style. she read the message " hello Lara, I hope you are still around to get this message or at least have your sim with you to get this message. I am sorry Lara, about last time. I over reacted, I wish you the best. I wish things could be different...have a good life Lara..." That's all? Lara was filled with disappointment...he just gave up. Her disappointment gradually gave way to become anger. She swallowed hard...suppressing the urge to cry her eyes watered she pressed the reply icon and replied " you too" she couldn't say more even though she had so much to say she sent it that way lay down on her bed facing the wall and cried...for what she just lost...she was due to leave the next day and she was going to leave all this behind... yet she cried....
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